Blood Stained Sheets
I sit here alone wrapped in my sheets
My mind is a buzz with a flurry of emotions
Feels more like a train station
I can’t stand this yet nothing can I do
So I sit here on these blood stained sheets

I opened my soul last night
I laid every part of me bare
I was willing and eager to give all
And nothing less
Now all I have to show for it
Are these blood stained sheets

Fearing to rise up clean myself of this filth
Never thought things would turn out this way
I remember the mixture of pain and pleasure
The look in your eyes as you came in
The sound of triumph that came from your lips

What happened to the tender sweet words?
Sweet nothings you whispered in ma ear
All these a distant painful memory
Each time evoking a torrent of tears
All the while I ponder on these blood stained sheets

I gave up so much for you
The pain was great but I had to feign pleasure
The guilt was crippling but you said it was different
You said you loved me and would never leave me
But that was last night
When the sheets were crisp and oh so white

Tis morning and you are gone
You aren’t answering my calls
I saw you leave
Your face filled with disgust and triumph
You came you saw and finally you conquered
But at what cost

I am all alone on these blood stained sheets
I am no longer who I used to be
I can never go back
The pain is too much to bear
I reach over for my pen

Tracing lines slowly over my wrists
My ears clouded by tears
Ouch!! Peace, wonderful, blissful
No more blood stained sheets
Only blood soaked ones.

2 Minutes
2 minutes and the call came through
2 minutes and I had a talk wit you
Your voice so quiet telling of your sadness
So many things to say
Yet silence was all we had
And that is all we need
For in it are our words spoken
Our feelings expressed and fears relieved
Go now, my love
Though the path before you may seem unsure
Remember with each step you take
You are not alone and never will be
God is by your side and you are in my prayers
With this knowledge look ahead and face tomorrow
With the confidence that comes from this knowledge
Adieu my love

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She stares up at the sky
All she sees are grey clouds
She longs for a blue sky
Alas! Not a single ray of sunlight can she see
Hanging her head low, she accepts her fate

Longing for a happier time
Wishing for a brighter day
Reality tells her she’s dreaming
But her dreams are all she has left
Her night now filled with nightmares
Constantly haunting her filling her sleep
She fears closing her eyes for sleep she dreads

The turmoil that consumes her life goes unseen
It bubbles and churns underneath
On the surface she seems okay
Truth be told she’s anything but that

She gathers the strength to scream
A cry for help fills the sky
Shattering the silence that once was
The clouds part and sunshine returns
She relishes the moment
Drinking it all in like a cool drink on a summers day
This peace she knows and dreads will not last long.