STRENGTH

Strength is crying out loud. Strength is getting up off the floor Strength is smiling when u want to frown Strength is defying all the odds Strength is putting one leg infront of the other.

NEW BEGINNINGS

To laughter To Tears To Roadtrips To First class plane rides To Sushi and Sashimi To Wonderful friends To reconnections To New experiences To 14times 14!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To Wonderful people To Beautiful hearts To Fresh moments To living instead of existing To New Beginnings.

RISE

Follow your heart, Listen to your inner voice, Allow your soul to dance Break free , Journey down your own path, Chart your destiny, Delight in your successes, Rejoice in who you are becoming, Cease to exist Start to live Rise to who you truly are.

PEACE

Peace is the calm in the midst of a storm. Peace is the cool breeze brushing across your face. Peace is the sense of relief in ones soul. Peace is being happy no matter what. Peace is looking at people who wronged you and smiling. Peace is sitting in a cafe lost in your thoughts. Peace is being able to smile once again. Peace is loving all you see in the mirror. Peace is walking in a heavy downpour without an umbrella. Peace is dancing in ones secret garden. Peace ah peace im glad i have found u at last. Go out and find your definition of peace.

TRIUMPH
I am out in the sun
Crawled out from the dark prison
One i made for myself
I had the key to my chains all along
My tears have dried
My smile has returned

God has turned my mourning into dancing
The sorrow of the night has passed
He has answered my prayers
He has carried me through the storm
Given me peace
Given me joy
Given me forgiveness
My trespasses are forgiven
My slate wiped clean

I am back in the arms of my Heavenly Father
How sweet it is how safe it is
Lord i am where i need to be
My trials have made me who i am

I am learning to see myself as You see me
Learning to place my trust totally in You
Learning to love myself as You love me
Learning to forgive as You have forgiven me

THANK YOU LORD THANK YOU LORD
YOU HAVE LISTENED AND SHOWN YOURSELF STRONG
I WILL NOT BE SHAMED
I WILL KEEP MY EYES ON YOU
MY CAPTAIN STEER MY SHIP
GUIDE MY PATH

(Dedicated to all who struggle with disappointment and self doubt. We will triumph we already have)

HOPE
Today as I walked to work
God taught me a lesson in hope.
There by the sidewalk
Was a lovely plant with white flowers
Surrounded by tarmac it overcame obstacles
It broke free from underground sprouted
Blossomed flowers with the sweetest scent
As i walked past i saw it
There by the side was a purple blossom
Amongst the white a solitary purple blossom
God's answer to my prayers

Hope is overcoming obstacles and sprouting
Hope is continue growing despite harsh conditions
Hope is having blossoms that give a sweet scent
Hope is that purple blossom amongst the white

Have hope be the purple blossom
Never lose hope even when they call u crazy
Never lose hope even when u feel u no one is for you
And like that purple blossom you shall flourish
And give the sweetest scent and give hope to the masses.

PHOENIX
I saw her today
Huddled in a corner,
I saw her eyes
I know the look
She walked into my room
She had a brave face
I knew that face

We sat and talked and out it came
Tears flowed freely
How someone robbed her
Forced himself on her
The questions of i should have fought harder
I should have screamed louder
I hate what I see

She calmed down
Opened up had a good cry
It got better
She is wounded not broken
She shall rise
As we all did before her
A phoenix is reborn

DEDICATED TO ALL VICTIMS OF RAPE. WE ARE ALL PHOENIXES.

DARE TO BE
I dare to be me
I dare to smile in the midst of pain
I dare to love myself as God loves me
I dare to stand up for myself
I dare to see myself as beautiful
I dare to listen to my inner voice
I dare to be different

I dare to defy the norms
I dare to be the best i can be
I dare to be my personal cheerleader
I dare to speak my mind
I dare to love whom I love
I dare to believe that i will triumph
DARE TO BE

UNTITLED
Today was an interesting day,
Work was so busy i never got time to sleep
Then a little baby boy taught me the meaning of fighting
Hes one year old with heart failure who was in distress
I did all i could not to lose him till i sat by his bed crying
Then i got down on my knees and asked God to step in
The baby got well then the patient next to him had a psychotic break
Almost smashed him with a monitor but thank God we stopped him
I swore i would have killed him then later in the psychiatric wing he coded
Rushed there and kneeling by his side i resuscitated him
Till we took him to ICU only to be told we should have brought him earlier

RAYS OF SUNSHINE
Well today was a beautiful Sunday
Sun shining birds singing and my shift began at noon.
I was feeling a tad bit sad and blue,
Then i met a friend on the way to work,
My mother thanked me for doing the grocery shopping
My patients were grateful today
Of special mention is Edith, shes asthmatic and pregnant
But bubbly of full of joy even during an attack she laughs
She always greets me with a smile
Full of expectation and happiness
With a loving husband and child on the way
She reminds me that you can always smile
She made me smile today

FORGETTING
How does one let go of love
how does one move past all the memories
Letting go of the love and say move on
All the memories
The intimate moments shared
the laughter the warmth the tears
the fights the reconciliations
i once tried and failed miserably
So now what do i do?
The answer lies within
So i wait in my garden tending to my roses
As i walk amongst the jacaranda flowers

QUESTIONS
When, How, Why What? How come?
Really?
All these questions
Expecting answers
But how should i answer
Why must i answer them
Why must i be the one to explain
Give answers as to why you hurt me
Why I'm in pain
Why the words hurt
I don't have any other answer but this
I FORGIVE YOU CAUSE I LOVE YOU.

RELAPSE
The joy i once had has faded
The peace and serenity of my spirit shattered
Accusations have been hurled at me and they cut deep
I have relapsed
Thoughts of self hatred well inside of me
Thoughts of despair seem to reign supreme
I tried to do the right thing
But alas i was fooling myself

My heart bleeds
My soul mourns
My spirit is breaking
Lord where are You
I cant do this alone
I feel so alone

No one to defend me
No one to hear my cry
Lord please
I dont know how much longer i can stay afloat
I feel like letting go

LETTING GO
I just watched an awesome movie called "the encounter"
Five people on a deserted road caught in a storm
Stop at a diner called last chance diner
Run by JESUS
It was eye opening i felt like God was speaking directly to me
The message these past two weeks has been let go and let God
Well He knows me inside and out
He's seen my attempts to fix the messes i have got myself into
He's patiently stood by and rescued me severally from situations which could have gone horribly wrong
He saved my life when i tried to end my life
He asked me tonight: "Do you trust Me?
I created the universe
I formed you in your mother's womb.
I alone know the plans I have for you
Plans to bring you a future and a hope
I love you with an everlasting love
I will never leave you nor forsake you
I have you in the palms of my Hands
Every hair on your head is counted
My child be the clay and I the potter
Be the sheep and I Your shepherd"
Yes Lord i say YES
Say Yes to Him Today

LOVE IS;
I once wrote an poem asking the question what is love,
Well today i got my answer during quiet time
Love is patient, love is kind
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonour others, it is not self seeking
It is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs,
It does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.

FORGIVENESS
Its better to forgive and forget than to hold on to a grudge.
This is a lesson i am struggling with
This past week I have been challenged
I got a call from an acquaintance who proceeded to laugh at me
Just because i was dumped it tore into wounds that were just starting to heal
I broke down hot tears streaming down my face asking God when will this be over
When will i be able to continue living my life
To not allow one human being to turn my world upside down
I am forgiving but every time I'm doing well something or someone comes to try and destroy that
Forgiveness is something that takes time but this one incident has toughened my resolve
I will continue to forgive and give grace to all
God give me the strength to do so

HAPPY NEW YEAR
Happy 2012, i must say this was one of the best new year's I've ushered. I had peace and quiet and thoroughly enjoyed my company
Spent it watching my favorite flicks as i ate ice cream and sang happy new year.
I have fallen in love with myself with my company
I look in the mirror and i love all i see.
I feel so happy inside.
This year is all about JOSEPHINE