QUESTIONS
When, How, Why What? How come?
Really?
All these questions
Expecting answers
But how should i answer
Why must i answer them
Why must i be the one to explain
Give answers as to why you hurt me
Why I'm in pain
Why the words hurt
I don't have any other answer but this
I FORGIVE YOU CAUSE I LOVE YOU.

RELAPSE
The joy i once had has faded
The peace and serenity of my spirit shattered
Accusations have been hurled at me and they cut deep
I have relapsed
Thoughts of self hatred well inside of me
Thoughts of despair seem to reign supreme
I tried to do the right thing
But alas i was fooling myself

My heart bleeds
My soul mourns
My spirit is breaking
Lord where are You
I cant do this alone
I feel so alone

No one to defend me
No one to hear my cry
Lord please
I dont know how much longer i can stay afloat
I feel like letting go

LETTING GO
I just watched an awesome movie called "the encounter"
Five people on a deserted road caught in a storm
Stop at a diner called last chance diner
Run by JESUS
It was eye opening i felt like God was speaking directly to me
The message these past two weeks has been let go and let God
Well He knows me inside and out
He's seen my attempts to fix the messes i have got myself into
He's patiently stood by and rescued me severally from situations which could have gone horribly wrong
He saved my life when i tried to end my life
He asked me tonight: "Do you trust Me?
I created the universe
I formed you in your mother's womb.
I alone know the plans I have for you
Plans to bring you a future and a hope
I love you with an everlasting love
I will never leave you nor forsake you
I have you in the palms of my Hands
Every hair on your head is counted
My child be the clay and I the potter
Be the sheep and I Your shepherd"
Yes Lord i say YES
Say Yes to Him Today

LOVE IS;
I once wrote an poem asking the question what is love,
Well today i got my answer during quiet time
Love is patient, love is kind
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonour others, it is not self seeking
It is not easily angered,it keeps no record of wrongs,
It does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.